The Petersen Herd

The Petersen Herd

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Do You See?

I just had a dream. Do you ever dream so vividly that you wake up convinced that it was real? Then your brain figures out it wasn't but your body (and emotions) just can't seem to recover for a while? In my dream I went blind. I woke up feeling desolate. Since I'm not going back to sleep like this I thought maybe I would vent in the hopes my emotions will dissipate through my fingers - yes, my computer is my pensieve.

If I were to go blind I would miss the following:
The faces of my family . . . . particularly Tyler and the kids (here I go tearing up again). I love expressions.

Reading. I know there's braille but seriously I'm not a patient person and to not be able to easily pick up a book and fly through the pages would be so frustrating.

Hobbies. Yep, I think I'd lose most of my hobbies if I couldn't see. Scrapbooking, sewing, even coloring with the kids, photography and playing the piano (I'm a music reader and without the music in front of me I can't play much) would all be practically impossible for me without vision.

Independence. How does one mother without sight? I know it can be done . . . just don't know if I could do it.

Rather than continue down this depressing train of thought I'll just put this out there. Today (wow, it's Thursday now), I will not take for granted my sight. I'll be thankful that I can see the "Yes Stepmother" look on Ksenya's face or Kabe as he screams at Ayvri or the puddle my dog left on the floor. I'll be thankful that I can see the music on the page, the words in my book, the dishes in the sink and the laundry on my floor.

Now, back to bed.
Sweet Dreams.

5 comments:

Uffda said...

Ha I had a dream in the hospital that I was single. Can't remember the details, but I was awakened by the nurse to feed Paisley and I just couldn't do it for a few good min. I had to bring myself back to reality before I could continue with my "real" life.

Wishful Thinking said...

Thank You. Thanks for sharing and making me be thankful for MY sight today. :)

Heath 'n Jeri said...

That is really really crappy! I hate those kind of dreams. Hope that your sightful day today is great!

Darla said...

I love that you could be thankful for your sight after that dream! What a great example you are to me. I'll be more aware and thankful now too. I love your gutz!

April said...

I've been meaning to add this little update, but I'm too lazy to scroll down to look for the right post. You can tell Kabryn our new favorite joke is the eyeball-rooty-tooty bum-bum one. Maryn has a good laugh, and tries to tell it herself. Even the older ones enjoyed it:)